boundless living
My 45-Day Challenge? Finding a fun-filled, sweet, soulful, supportive, contented, healthy, loving relationship grounded in trust and filled with positive energy with a special, affectionate, easy-going, loyal, supportive and loving man.
Someone who is just a tad spiritual-minded or positive in spirit … In other words, he knows enough not to sweat the small stuff! 
Wish me luck, it’s a jungle out there!
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Wanna hear my relationship-journey soundtrack? Scroll waaaay down to the bottom of this page!
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DAY THIRTY-SEVEN: New York monkey meets Oklahoma monkey and they hit it off!
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DAY THIRTY-SIX: God Jars and Santa Clause
International Wear-Your-Hat-In-Your-Video Week continues with talk of Santa Clause and God Jars … Visit The Prosperity Portal (prosperity from the inside out) and see the web banner I designed, woo woo, while you check out the WEALTH of tools for shifting your vibration … or stop by Choosing Prosperity for a free two-week trial of the Prosperity Partnership teleclass which is changing my life even as we speak!
PS: Putting things in your God Jar does *not* mean not taking action … you put the things in there that you would like God / The Universe / Higher Power to fix or change if you’re not certain what action to take … in putting the things in there, you are committing to letting go of negativity/resistance/attachment and to hand the situation over to God / The Universe / Higher Power. If inspired action hits, you take it!
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DAY THIRTY-FIVE: Mongeese and ducks-in-a-row
International wear-your-hat-in-your-video-week continues … Exploring the concept “I don’t have my ducks in a row” / I’m “not ready”
(Larry told me I have the energy of a mongoose, for all of you who are wondrin’ “what the *hell* is she talkin’ bout?”
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DAY THIRTY-FOUR: Col’s Dad
I worked out some of the stuff I was referring to in the video. I am going to “request” what I feel will be good for my dad … I will ask for “this or something better” and also add “I trust you.”
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DAY THIRTY-THREE: Post Art-Show Musings
Well, I had a perfectly imperfect show and it was *WON*derful! Plus, y’gotta see this book Mila wrote … it’s a real page-turner and I stayed up longer than expected last night reading it. PS: Little known fact: It’s national wear-your-hat-in-your-video week! What, y’didn’t know that?
See Mila’s Book here: Little Mary of the Rose and the Giant Baked Bean
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DAY THIRTY-TWO: Stress and the Fine Art of Art Shows
Join me as I wrestle to the ground some pre-art-show stress! Claiming my right to have a “beautifully imperfect show” was the key!
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DAY THIRTY-ONE: Revelation: on being human
Shocking revelation: it’s ok to be human! Even when you are running a graphic design business! Who’d'a thunk it?
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DAY THIRTY: Ditching the idea “men hurt people”
Trust SELF with the deep knowing that if the energy I don’t want comes at me, I’ll know what to say/do to address it, to maintain my boundaries in a kind, loving, respectful, honest and funloving way.
I can always say, “Hey, I’m really diggin’ you! In order for us to stay connected and have fun, I’d love to share something that’s on my mind with you, is that cool? The thing is … I don’t know what you’re looking for. If it’s a one-night-stand, I’m not your girl. It’s just not my thing. So if that’s what you’re looking for, it’s totally cool, I just don’t want to waste your time. On the other hand, if you want to hang out and get to know eachother and share a few laughs while we do that, I’d be totally up for it. So what do you think?”
Now, of course you know me, I feel totally comfortable with this and yet I wonder what people reading it will think. You may be thinking, “that’s a bit much for a guy to handle!” But if that’s true, then he wasn’t one of my peeps to begin with and he wouldn’t have enjoyed hanging out with me anyway … cuz this is me! And to express this like that is soooo me!
Knowing that if the energy begins to feel like something I’m not comfortable with, I can say something like this … well, it feels really good to me … because this way I don’t need to convolute my own energy or to hide my own light in order to divert a situation and I don’t need to figure out “what’s going on.”
So yaay, I love it! 
Once again, what I shared in the video feels a liiiiiittle bit uncomfortable and I wonder if I should not do it … but in the event that it may help someone, here I am doing it!
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DAY TWENTY-SEVEN: In which I discover … “he’s not the one, people!” And I acquire a new tripod.
Makin’ new discoveries in the ATL. There are two videos here … the second one is super-short, just a cool little PS that occurred post-taping … I LOVE it when something you need plops right into your lap!
PS#1: Insight: It isn’t “possible” for me to do anything “wrong” … Of course I’ll never know if the issue I discussed in the video was the deciding factor but if I’m right that he responded to that as if it were a bigger issue than I know it to be … then I guess he wasn’t the one for me! No mistakes!
PS#2: My newfound friend Joshua told me at the Boundless Living Open Mic Night, “If I were you I would be really excited to have met this guy even though it didn’t work out, cuz it shows that the type of guy you like is out there and that you’re on the right track!” (I am totally paraphrasing, Josh!) What a great comment, right? What a smart, smart twenty-somethin-year-old. I love that so much! Josh, you totally totally rock!
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DAY TWENTY-THREE: What I don’t want you to see … part deux
Another cryin’ vlog … with some more exploration of the “men disappear” theme!
In this video, I am not yet pivoting and I will explain why …
“Pivot — To consciously change the direction of one’s thought. To deliberately choose a thought that is in vibrational harmony with one’s desire.”
Elyse Hope Killoran who I am incessantly talking about says:
“If you have followed negative thoughts into a really bad place, so you are deep into pain, it is hard to pivot. At that point, Abe says it is best to just go to sleep, see a movie, read a book, swim, walk, fantasize about sex or distract yourself in some way so that you get back to your feel good state.”
“Then from that feel good state, when you have the first twinge of negative emotion, now, THAT is the time to jump on it, and really notice the thought that is playing at the moment. It is a thought that your IB is checking right out of your experience on. That particular thought isn’t TRUE in the cosmic sense of the word, though it may be fact in your current context. If you think, “I am not enough,” or “I can’t trust myself,” then your IB is out of there!”
“The moment your Inner Being stops flowing through you, you feel negative emotion. You stop, notice you are feeling bad, and look for the thought that caused the emotion. You notice it is a habitual thought of “I am not enough.” You say to yourself, “Well, John McCurdy says this negative emotion means this thought isn’t true. What is the truth about me?”
“What do I want to believe about myself? I want to believe that I am enough. I want to know that I am wonderful, in fact.”
“If you feel better with what you said to yourself, your pivot is successful. Feeling a sense of relief is a clear sign of a neatly executed pivot! Abraham says that we never go back to the original vibration on that subject, after we pivot on it even once. It may reoccur often for awhile, but it will be easier to recognize and shift each time.”
Ok, so without further ado … let the crying ensue!
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DAY TWENTY-ONE: In which I discuss wanting to give one of you an inspiration bracelet … and the concept “men disappear” : Aug 10
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NO IDEA WHAT DAY IT IS! : Back in the blogosphere!
What an adventure! My super-nice newly-borrowed camera creates video which is reeeeally superbly high in resolution and therefore un-uploadable to this web site! Aaaand also the file format is un-openable in my Windows Movie Maker program! Sheesh!
Therefore, I am happy to say that I am now formally brand spankin’ newly adept at video compression, woo what a journey!
And since I can’t import it into WMM, there is no caption telling you what I am saying when it is inaudible (It was, for the curious ones, “Can y’hear, my chair is squeeking? Hope not!”)
… and no chopping out the unintelligible pieces! Hope ya don’t mind!
Ok so today I just talk in an extremely ADD fashion about being back and being a part of this group … brainstorming power from the littlest of things to the biggest of things, right?
And, I made a ring today … hey, maybe my dad will sell it on ebay, right? He is so cute with my jewelry, why does he put soooo much of it up there? Gotta love dad.
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DAY EIGHT: a date! July 27th but who’s counting
I went on a date, everybody!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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DAY SEVEN: Join me as some emotions arise!
Yes, you’re very observant … Day 6 is officially MIA! Soon I will share that with you, up on the rooftop of my friend’s apartment in Manhattan, but for now come journey with me through some “tough stuff!”
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INTERMISSION: poor substitute for Day Six but here’s a little aside!
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DAY FIVE: Getting into resonance by following feelings
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DAY FOUR: Saying “yes!”
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DAY THREE: Little bitta fear … little bitta silliness … and lotsa committing
… committing to the challenge, that is! On Day 45 I will be committing to HIM! Let’s think positive! Bob is on the case! (That’s right, put it all on BOB!
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DAY TWO: Bob Doyle knows how to get this party started
So I joined Bob Doyle’s 45-day Boundless Living Challenge and holy-moley are there a lot of supportive people over there!
Introducing … [fanfare and joyous throngs celebrating] … my very first vlog ever … (EVER!) No, look, there’s a “v” at the start of that word, I am now officially a vlogger. How ’bout that? And my oh my, what a beauteous screen capture below! [rolling eyes]
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Col’s Relationship Playlist
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Col’s Relationship Video Dreamboard